Bad habits are like a comfortable bed, easy to get into, but hard to get out of. -Old Proverb
Last summer we ran a quote by Wayne Dyer, "Every morning, in your first view of the day, you have the choice to say, 'Good morning, God' or 'Good God, morning.'" Well, lately for me it seems to be more "Good God, morning." I have contemplated what I'm doing to provoke my not-so-stellar outlook each morning, and it boils down to bad habits.
I have a vision in my mind of how I want to be; however, my bad habits are not allowing me to be that person. So in addition to summering (If you read last month's letter, I announced that I was taking time to "summer", of which I have done a good job), I have become conscious of several bad habits, which I plan on conquering. Here are a few:
Getting more sleep: I was raised to be a night owl. As a child, I never had a bedtime; I still don't have a bedtime. It's not surprising that I find myself getting less and less sleep, and being more and more tired. It's usually around 1:00 a.m. before I crawl into the sack, sometimes later. I'm beginning to see how this habit is wreaking havoc with my energy level. It's kind of like waiting to eat until you're starving-actually another of my bad habits. My ultimate goal is to get in bed around 10:30, sheets turned down, pillows fluffed, and read until 11:00, at which point I will quietly doze off and awake at 7:00 a.m. I have a long way to go to, because if I'm into a book, I'll read until I finish it, regardless of time, not to mention, I get a second wind most nights around 11:00.which leads me to my next bad habit.
Computer/Working around the clock: Having a computer in the house is like constantly carrying my brief case around with me. It's just way too easy to leave the office, come home, and continue to work. I know I'm not the only one in the habit of working beyond work hours. It's typical of the age we live in-always checking emails, scouring the computer for ideas, editing articles, writing-it's just all at my finger tips on my beloved giant iMac, right in the comfort of home. It's imperative I muster up some discipline to turn work off at home, remembering all work and no play makes Jill a very dull, tired, one-dimensional girl, with a lot of undone laundry.
Ease into the morning: Because I go to sleep late, I squeeze in every possible minute of sleep before getting up. This leaves me hurrying as soon as my feet hit the ground. It's a terrible way to start the day-having barely 30 minutes to do at least an hour's worth of getting ready. Of course, there's no time for coffee, devotion, journaling, meditation, exercise, or planning the day. I'm beginning to see a chain reaction here. Ahhh, it is all beginning to make sense, Grasshopper.
Shower first: If I do have time in the morning to check emails, etc. I find that I put my shower off to last. This makes me late everywhere I go. You see, I will work and/or piddle for too long, leaving myself an unrealistic time to shower and get ready. (I can hear your uh-huh's, confirming that you do this ,too!) The solution is to shower and get ready as soon as I wake up. That way, when it time to go, I'm ready.so easily said, as I sit here in my pajamas, unshowered, writing this article, having to be somewhere in 17 minutes.
My list could go on, but I don't want you to know just how inadequate I can really be. I have to resort back to Meg Ryan's quote, mainly because these are words I live by: "I am so inadequate, and I love myself." That's all I can do-embrace myself exactly how I am, right now, because if I beat myself up over it, and make myself feel bad, I'll never change. I'll just continue to wallow in it. So, I'm putting my goals out to you. I did that with my goals of summering, and it worked. Our friends, the Moosbruggers, got us out on the tennis courts; I've been to the pool; I've finished two books; I'm well on my way.
I encourage you to take a moment to set your personal goals-just a few at the time to avoid overwhelm-and tell people what they are. Putting them out there gives them energy and life, and the amazing thing is people want to help. Let me know your goals, and we'll conquer our bad habits together!